Today I woke up at 5:15 am.
I kissed the kids and Craig goodbye as they left for school and work, and then went off to work myself. It was another day. A day that felt heavy because of worries I thought were real.
Today Craig went to work. He got dressed and prepared for meetings.
He made his lunch and read the news. He drank his coffee and left in time to get to Halifax.
Today Mark dressed in bright colours for Pride Day at school. He thought about Badminton try outs and tried not to be nervous about them.
He prepared to navigate the halls of high school as a 14 year old boy.
Today Megan submitted her courses for her final year at Horton. She donned a bright headband and bracelets for Pride Day.
She went to school incredibly proud to be partaking in her very first Blood Donation. She left voicing why she wanted to do it and her pride and determination to do so was palpable. She wanted to give life.
But today as she was giving life, as all of this was happening, as we were going about our everyday-day, thinking we knew what “heavy” was, our Jadyn, our SuperGirl, our light, our love, our positive shining star, took her last breath.
This wasn’t supposed to happen today.
But it did. It doesn’t feel real.
But it is.
And so I can’t let today go by without this:
We love you Jadyn. We will remember, honour and celebrate you. We will whisper thank you for all that you taught us about strength, optimism and courage. We will remember to laugh in hard times, to have close friendships, to be silly, to keep smiling, and to give back to those who have helped us along the way. This is how you lived your life and we promise we were watching and listening.
We promise we will do all of this … we will make you as proud of us as we are of you …. next year, next week, tomorrow … and even today … March 6, 2018.