My family and I just returned from a two and a half week vacation. Everything about me whispers thank you for the ability to have done this. To have experienced this.
I’m thankful for a job in my field that happens to compensate me well. Maybe I’m not supposed to say that, but I worked hard to get there. I’m thankful for the support of teachers who don’t bat an eyelash when I tell them we are scooping up the kids.
I’m thankful for neighbours and friends who looked in on our home and plow snow … a lot of snow … while we were gone. I’m thankful for family who take and care for our most important furry loved one.
I’m so grateful to return to a home that’s safe and sound.
I’m thankful for friends who leave amazing messages for me to return home to and I’m thankful for our safe journey after 2000 miles of driving and five plane rides.
And after all of that. After recognizing all it takes to make something like this come together, I find myself always wanting to delay reality when I return.
I don’t want to return to the real world. At least not just yet. I know what’s waiting there. The responsibility and the to do lists.
Just a little while longer of just the four of us in paradise please.
So I come home and I try and stay in “this place” for 48 hours. Just 48 hours more. Let me ease back into this thing called life. I don’t want to have to be “on” quite yet.
And life seems to be cooperating with me this time. Because on our first day back wouldn’t you believe school is cancelled. That means no stack of papers coming home to go through, no homework to be on top of and even basketball practice is cancelled. The universe is being kind to me.
I do go to work, some things can’t be delayed, but I close my door. I never close my door. But I need just a little while longer. Just a little more time.
I stay off all social media. Turning it on after 2 1/2 weeks will feel like a rushing wave of reality. Just a little while longer let it be “just us”. Let me be selfish.
I don’t open any of the big stack of mail sitting on my table. With the exception of some birthday cards the rest of it can wait. Just a little while longer.
I don’t call or text anyone except those who have reached out to me, because I know they will be there tomorrow … and they know me well enough by now that I need a little more hibernation.
But now it’s Wednesday. We have been home our 48 hours and there is a slew of extra curricular kid activities on tonight. So I guess it’s time to put on my big girl panties and wade into that reality.
It won’t be so bad really. Truth be told right now I can’t wait to find out what my friends and family have been up to. I can’t wait to see those basketball Moms and make a lunch date with a few particular girlfriends. And I’m just about aching to hug the stuffing out of a few people when I see them. I desperately need that long chat with my BFF and need to find out how her son did in the hockey tourney.
Yes. It’s Wednesday and I guess it’s time to get back in the game. And honestly there is no better reality to return to than the one I get to live right here. I’m pretty damn lucky. There is a lot to whisper thank you for … both on the road and at home.
So 1, 2, 3 … here we go.